Not Fooling Myself

Some random stuff I’ve understood about the way I function, over the years, and things I need to pay attention to so that I don’t slide down slippery jungle paths.

For some reason, I seem to have this strange belief that if there’s something I need to do that I don’t quite feel like doing, it’ll go away if I ignore it — or I’ll magically feel like doing it later on. Things like doing the washing-up, taxes, but also cooking food, etc. I keep having to remind myself that no, I won’t feel like doing the washing up any more than right now if I go back to what I was doing and wait. One mechanism of procrastination debugged (well, it still pops up, but it’s a known bug).

A lot of my hardships in life come from a tendency to treat everything as a matter of life and death. Sometimes, simply remembering to treat a difficult situation as an “experiment”, to “see what happens” (rather than “succeed at all costs”), is enough to help me wind down and screw my head back on (not literally, but you see what I mean). A slightly more specific version of “take three steps back”, I guess.

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Oh, and Don’t Forget

…to register for Going Solo before March 16th. Because the prices go up, after that.

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Here We Go!

I’m all packed, I have a little less than five hours of sleep left before the alarm rings, and I’ve (gasp!) had dinner.

I’m off to Ireland, Texas, and California for a near-to-four-week trip. My favourite catsitter will be taking care of Bagha during my absence.

I’ll have access to the internet during my travels, of course, but as I’ll be mighty busy with conferences and the like, you can expect me to be even less responsive than usual. Yes, it’s possible.

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An Example: Quoting

Here is the way to make a quote:

Things always take longer than expected. In this case, it wasn’t actually finding the venue (which was done in 4 days from start to finish), but sitting down in front of this computer long enough to blog about. (Well, I’ve been sitting many long hours in front of this computer, dealing with things like budgets, designers, partners, and registration — just not blogging.)

This text comes from this post on Going Solo.

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Bagha and Me

Bagha and Me

Trying to be cute.

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Morning Rituals

Let me tell you, there is something to be said for taking a shower first thing in the morning to wake up. And using that woozy wake-up time in the bathroom rather than in front of the computer.

Having been freed of the “wake up, shower, get dressed, breakfast, brush teeth” morning ritual since I became self-employed over 18 months ago, I think I’m on the verge of reclaiming that ritual for myself. I’d already noticed a few months back that it made a real difference, and then I slipped out of it again.

As we’re talking of morning rituals, I’ve recently started doing nasal irrigation (basically, letting saline water run in one nostril and out the other to clean the nose) — and my, do I wish I’d discovered this 15 years ago.

Let me explain: I’m allergic to dust-mites, which isn’t a huge deal in itself, apart from the fact I tend to run about with a permanently runny nose and a pack of hankies all year around. I’m also rather fragile in the upper respiratory department, so I get a lot of colds and stuff.

Well, since I started using a neti pot (see demo video), I’ve basically stopped having to carry tissues with me. Like… I went from blowing my nose 10 times a day to zero.

A few tips if you’re tempted, from the two links above and my personal experience — and if you have any kind of nose/sinus problem, I would definitely recommend that you give it a try.

  • use warm-but-not-too-hot water (should feel nice and warm on the hand without being hot)
  • don’t salt too much (my neti pot came with special de-iodized salt, and instructions say one flat teaspoon)
  • don’t blow your nose, specially blocking one nostril, to get the water out — just blow gently through both nostrils and do the exercises at the end of the video (you’d be surprised how much water your nose can hold when you thought it was empty)
  • if it hurts badly, something could be wrong — better check with a doctor
  • if water starts running out of your mouth, don’t panic and keep breathing and just let it happen — your position might be slightly off (no big deal, with some practice you’ll figure it out for yourself)

I had a nasty cold this week and though at times I was so congested things seemed hopeless, I have the impression nasal irrigation really helped me get through it faster, without it getting worse, and with less cold meds than usual. So, it seems it helped with that too.

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Some News

So, a little news for those who might care. I had a blood test done recently because I suspected I had anaemia again, and my suspicions were correct. That explains why I feel so exhausted, tired, worn-out, fall ill, and can’t seem to really get back on my feet. As this seems to be a recurring problem, we’re trying to figure out the cause, which is probably digestive.

I’ll spare you the gory details about how they try to figure out if your stomach is too acid and hindering good iron absorption, but I’m not dealing very well with this kind of exam.

Aside from that, things are a bit… complicate/difficult in my person life [insert comments about dealing with inner demons, etc.].

I’m trying to reposition myself on the job market a little, because I have the feeling the market isn’t really ready for some of the stuff I’d really like to be doing. It’s more “refocus” rather than reposition, actually. No drastic change, but trying to see (and state) a bit clearer what I’m offering to my clients. There’s also the company and related projects, but I’m having trouble putting as much energy as I’d like into it right now because of what I just explained above.

So, in short, nothing really serious, but rather rough times. Should be better in a couple of weeks, though.

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